Disillusionment

As bad a boy as I can be

Their genes and desire

Attract the honeybees

And many I have lit their fire

Love but a purpose

On their tongue

But in full denial of their true thought

Of the lust that is sought

Life has taught me

If nothing else

That while love is sought

With lust it can be bought

At our essence only animals are we

We claim to be above the beasts

How naïve are we

Providing meat for natures feast

We hide our lust in a thing called love

To provide a rationalization

For the beast within us all

But at what I have written I am appalled

For it is not as I had hoped

But what life has taught

That through lust

Love can be bought

Of true love I know naught

I have given myself to no avail

All of myself to another’s wishes

But in the name of love

My heart has felt nails

So now

How to love and trust

It is only in my inner self

That I deeply believe  I must

What is my purpose upon this earth

To be beast for breeding stock

Or to feel that which I have so long sought

Love that lust has not bought

Pat Betz 2012

Pat, and his brother Michael, are two good friends. Hopefully Mr. Betz will be authoring more entries on this site in the near future!